Sunsets

So teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom. –Psalm 90:12 NKJV

Here it is, the final day of February, and I cannot express how quickly this year is moving. March is next and then April which brings my MRI. My thoughts circle around this date with the realization that it’s been almost a whole entire year without a peek inside my brain. A year is the longest I’ve gone since September 2005 without an MRI. Funny, but that time has flown too. Then I had a new baby, a three and a six year old, now they’re four, seven and 10! Then I knew something serious was wrong and now I live with the knowledge that something serious could happen at any moment, to anyone. Life is a gift and none of us are promised a tomorrow and while serious illness forced me to face this fact at a young age; continued life has made me grateful for each moment and each breath.

We have a family tradition of watching the sun go down. When someone notices the sun going down they yell “sunset” and we all drop whatever we’re doing and run outside to watch the final glow of the day. We stand together, in heat, cold, wind, snow…whatever the day has brought, and marvel at the majesty painted in the sky. It’s a wonderful time of reflection and rejoicing.

Sunsets have special meaning for us because after I was diagnosed with cancer, John was driving home praying when he saw a sunset like none he had ever seen before and a had a sudden overwhelming assurance that I was going to be okay. From that day forward, he never wavered in his confidence that I was going to be okay. He headed off my panic, fear, doubt, pain, depression and morbid thoughts by continually reassuring me that I was going to be okay. And now that I am okay, I don’t want to waste a single second of the time I’ve been given, nor miss an opportunity to be awed by a sunset.

Doggie Upate

I haven't posted any new pictures of our babies, but they are HUGE!
At ten months old Marvel is pushing 100 pounds. He had surgery on his hip in December and is doing very well, back to putting some weight on it even though he does a very fast three legged run. Maggie is smaller only about 80 pounds. She went with us to Grandma's house over the weekend. Poor thing was very carsick. We finally got her some dramamine and she seemed to do better.

10 for 2010

2010…Holy Zoom Batman
I can’t believe how quickly time seems to move these days. Not sure if it’s because I’m getting older more rapidly than I’d like or if it’s just because the girls seem to be growing so fast. Stealing an idea from a friend http://justme-leah.blogspot.com/; I decided to do ten resolutions or goals for 2010. I’ve never made resolutions before so this is something new for me. So here they are in no particular order:
1. Finish things I start. While intentions are good, results are better.
2. No more procrastination. I resolve to do the tough things first because I know that putting them off simply makes me stress out.
3. Start and maintain an exercise program that incorporates running and core body strength. I’ve been so angry at my body for getting cancer that in a lot of ways I’ve abused physical self.
4. Make an effort to really live my life and quit avoiding things because I’m too scared of getting hurt; emotionally or physically. No more hiding in books, beer or the bathtub.
5. Eat a healthy diet…every single day. More fruits and veggies, less chips and cheese.
6. Become a planner. Days, Meals, School, and Socialization. “If you fail to plan, plan to fail.”
7. Work on being a better wife, mother, daughter, sister and friend. Make the time and effort to let them all know how very much I love them.
8. Spend more time with God in prayer. I want my life to testify to the glory of Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior, but I also want to be comfortable resting in Him. He says His yoke is light and burden easy, I need to experience that more and beat up on myself less.
9. Spend less time on the internet. Enough said.
10. Do some things just for me. Massage, photography or pottery class. Something that I do just because I enjoy it and no other reason.
As I read through these, most have to do with time. I see I need to be more selective about where I spend my time since each of us only gets a finite amount in this life. Hoping 2010 is the best year yet.